Ya know...I thought this blogging thing would be fun to pick up again. I should know better. How am I supposed to fit this in? When I started to blog, I needed an outlet. I needed to be able to express myself. I had a LOT of time at home and needed something for myself. I feel like many things have taken the place of blogging.
1) I have a job. I love my job. But my bored days at home have totally changed. On my two days off, I'm running all the errands, catching up with friends for lunch, and attempting to clean my house. I remember when I had time to dream up redecorating rooms and home improvement projects. While we have put in wood floors almost a year ago, my house has virtually stayed in a time warp...frozen in the way it looked 2 years ago. I'm not complaining. I had 4 years of being a stay at home mom in this house (we moved in 2004)and got all that decorating out of my system in that time. If you think I'm kidding, it's all documented in my blog...including before and after pictures!
2) My fourth child just started full time school this year. You think that makes my job easier? Helllooo! Homework? Soccer? Cheer? Daisies? Birthday parties? Puhlease! This girl is busy! How did it all happen so fast?? Ben and Mary have entered the "activities scene" in the past two years. They have doubled the activities that went on my calendar in that short time period...just by becoming school age. My life will never be the same.
3) My brain is scattered. I'm running in three different directions almost every night. I can't think straight. Which makes it very hard to focus on a blog. You don't believe me? I forgot that Abby was at a friend's house tonight and it wasn't until she called me at 8:38pm did I realize she was forgotten. How embarassing! She was with her carpool friend so it's not like a new friend or something. Which is why I guess I forgot. No excuse, though. It makes me think...where is my head??
4) Sam is in his last year of Eighth Grade so we are busy with high school application, practicing for the school play, preparing for Confirmation, and tearing up at every "last" experience he has at the school.
5) My sister's family lives with us now. I don't know if this is a good excuse for not blogging, but I can say that is totally adds to the lack of focus when you are in a household of 10 people. It just does. I have to admit, she helps me straighten the house and helps with the dishes. Thank God. But there is just a little more chaos and I think whatever form of A.D.D. I have just gets challenged. I don't have an official diagnosis of A.D.D., but focus is definately a problem.
My house groans as it reminesces those days where it was lovingly cleaned up daily. I try to keep up with it, but it's just so hard...so I basically tolerate it. My mom says that me and my sister Lisa do it right. My mom grew up with a house cleanliness obsession. It all had to be perfect or you were unfit to be a wife and mother. I guess these expectations have loosened a little through the years. My house is rarely presentable these days. But I'm not willing to drive myself crazy trying to keep it perfect. So I just have to tolerate it during this busy time in our lives. I refuse to nag and nag to get others to make what is important to ME, important to THEM. It just won't happen. So maybe our mom thinks we are taking a "higher road" by tolerating the mess, but frankly, I don't feel I have much of a choice!
